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so it worked? she smiled back Its  you? of course! and you? look at you! she manoeuvred his head to see each angle how do i look? younger - definitely, but- because I was hideously old?  no - come on!  this is mad - so what do you think? she curtsied  my hands - I hadn’t noticed how much my hands had changed look at me! i never knew this version of you  am i a stranger?  he smiled well we ought to meet as strangers he held out his hand wow, you’re beautiful, what’s your name? she snorted  no!  what? wouldn’t that have worked? she danced in front of him god - I hadn’t noticed how tired i was. let’s dance! I just hope this isn’t using the energy of my actual self so our  time runs out and we go back to two dead bodies - at least we had this - come on, dance with me

the sky is a yellow milk a lost post bag dragged through the dirt summers ending fuck - did I make enough of this one ?

S designed houses - housing estates in fact. He liked the principles of Le Corbusier and built shopping centres and tower blocks out of raw concrete. It wasn’t long before his buildings lay sick and abandoned and he became obsessed with dereliction. He lost hours in empty rooms with broken windows. He didn’t believe in the paranormal but he felt the life and death of a place at the same time. Standing in the shopping centre he’d designed many years ago, he could feel the energy of the hundreds of lives that passed through and felt their absence like an emptiness in himself. S became a grandfather and he entered his third life of playgrounds. His first had been as a child jumping off swings onto concrete. His second was as a dad terrified his sons would do the same. His third was as a grandad and he knew this would be the last spoonful of this meal. He admired the climbing frame. This tiny metal temple gate in flood water, snow and the dust of summer.  And so S spent the remainder o...

do you still draw? no. how come? i’m not sure. as a boy it used to be like eating. i wish i remember what the drawings were for.  what they were for- i watched my son draw and he either showed me the page afterwards or he just threw it aside and started another one.  you feel one was for you and the other for- for himself, for nothing, for itself? do you still draw?  yes.  do you draw from compulsion still? yes i suppose i maintained the practice of drawing. not always for the same reasons though. increasingly they’re like notes for me.  and who are the notes for? for me i think mainly and ideas for work. do they look much different - the drawings for you and the ideas for work? probably. i’m not always convinced i have a popular taste but I can sometimes recognise what might be popular. you might draw yourself an apple and then a pear that people might like. yes. or i usually draw something and decide if I like it. if I decide i like it I...

give me the sound of a school playground on the air that fenced in joy please play me it on loop

if death isn’t just nothingness then i feel it might be like this  an endless wet sandy beach and the dim rattle of far off waves the sky blocked by clouds that sag grey in the air  and a wind that plugs the ears and loudens the mind  i stop and you walk on barefoot and carefree as I look for you in the distance  i saw you as a memory i’ll have i can see your smile from here  you said you talked to your body coaching it to fight the cancer you saw the sea as limitlessness an open expanse of opportunity this place gave you hope and your voice a clarity i felt a stranger in it in this space where our privacy wanders through an air of stem cells the air we breathe in dreams  walking always at a distance a guest still wearing his shoes

the door opened on first press a resident followed us through and with a smile let us in the inner door still  using his fob on the broken lock  we stood in a small lobby  while he punched the lift buttons and explained to us in another language that a lift wasn’t working primary coloured bauhaus windows in concrete were at one end of the lobby  and an exposed ceiling above a long vacant concierge was at the other the resident offered us to take the lift first and  we declined too politely to be taken seriously  two other residents came out the lift and turned back before leaving are you visiting? we didn’t feel invisible anymore because people here get funny about people coming in We understand, we’re just going to take a picture of that wall and go you can contact the residents association I think or there’s days you can visit we’re just going to take a picture of that wall and go ok cool we considered taking the lift to explore more  but I was uneas...